Monday, June 16, 2008
I'm done with my exams. Whether or not I pass, that's another story altogether. One that I shall not bother to pre-empt.
Everyone else is at the third year dinner now, but I chose to stay home with my crew... no one special... just the usual Hoes, Blondes, (the odd corona or 2), Jack, Mr Walker, The Absolut etc. I've still got the Brown brothers chilling out in the fridge, and a cleanskin beside it. Should've bought a coupla Smirnoff but oh well... perhaps another time.
I've had 2 Hoes already and just waiting on my friends, see if they decide to come or not, for a game of poker/taboo. Then I'ma have to head off to bed and then wake up early tomorrow, travel to Camberwell to meet a representative from the breast cancer association where I'll be spending my time volunteering at this winter.
I can't believe its the holidays already! I feel like I should be doing something productive. But... I don't know what I should be doing.
Been on MSN since dinner, webcammed with Kim, chatted with Janii, Wai, Chris, Dom, Niklas. Now I'm watching Dave Letterman.
I feel loved :)
The warmth of alcohol, and the heater, and my jumper... makes me feel loved :)
It's been a long time coming.
It just dawned on me that after tonight, considering most people are leaving soon anyway, that we'd all be going our separate ways. Different research institutes,different countries, different clinical schools, different timetabling, different group of peers, different everything.
Suddenly, I feel so empty. Like there's a void in my heart that I cannot ever fill. Because it is difficult sometimes, to pick up where you left off with someone. Even if they're just friends.